October 30,2009 Gifts

1. went the hynotist show on campus tonight...it was so hilarious and so much fun! i officially believe in hypnotism!
2. had mcdonalds today.
3. went to an oxford reunion thing. it was fun, though they were drinking and i felt a bit uncomfortable.
4. watched he's just not that into you.
5. beautiful sunset i saw today

location:Abilene,Texas

October 29,2009 Gifts

1. got to sleep in until 10am today!
2. had a good lunch today with a friend. i problaly caused him to catch a cold or something because it was a bit chilly out(cold to a texan)and i knew he was cold but i wasnt cold so because i wanted to we eate outside, so i feel kinda bad and if he gets sick, it will be my fault. lol other than that, it was a good time.
3. had a good dinner at the bean tonight before my snow skiing class
4. (cant believe I am saying this)I loved the chilly/cold weather today. made me feel nice and cozy.
5. I LOVED my missionary anthropology class even more than usual today- we talked about wedding traditions today and where they came from and how the function is no longer the same even though the form is. so amazing and interesting and it is exactly why I am an international studies major.

location: Abilene,Texas

October 29,2009 Gifts

1. had lunch with Anna today. it was so great talking and catching up; we've hardly seen each other this semester.
2. laughed a lot today
3. started reading a good book called "moments for singles" and already i love it!
4. it was a beautiful day today
5. I touched a guy's hair today!just the bangs, but it counts ;)

location:Abilene,Texas

October 27,2009

1. astronomy group meeting went well! I am the astronaut in our short video for our presentation on neptune and we seem to have a good group. :)
2. on my way back from Rosa's I sat by the side of the sidewalk and read for about 30 minutes or so. very nice and relaxing actually. and fun :) :)
3. felt confident today
4. did not cry today
5. had my career counseling meeting today and it went well! we will be looking at(based on my interests and test results and our talk) at librarian and management(international since that's my major and what i said i wanted out of a job:traveling)
6. I actually got to talk to Brent Bailey for more than 5 minutes today! lol i am joking but it's always nice to talk to him.
7. had a good relaxing time watching some guys playing frisbee before my 1:30pm class today.

location:Abilene,Texas

October 26,2009 Gifts

1. I felt confident today; my hair is straight and I always feel more confident when I have my hair done straight. shallow I know, but I love it straight so I feel happier and more confident when it's straight.
2. in chapel today, a guy called me babe!!what happened was that he was shouting to one of his friends and I turned my head at the same moment and he thought that i thouhgt he was talking to me and he said "not you babe." I've never been called a babe before and it's a nice boost to my confidence. made my feel good about myself and normal.
3. these two guys that I know from around campus and classes, went into the library just to talk to me!they were problaly passing by but they went in just to talk to me. that's such a good confidence booster! :)
4. I am still horrible at flirting, but I am moving up from horrible to pathetic.... exciting! :)
5. did not cry today

location:Abilene,Texas

October 25,2009 Gifts

1. wore my leather, knee length, black high heeled boots to church today and i actually felt like I looked okay.
2. had a guy compliment my hair today when i got to church! i know it sounds silly, but that doesnt happen to me all that often so I am excited :) lol
3. I did not cry in church today! :)
4. went to life group tonight, where we talked about relationships. it was good in one way, bad in another you know?anyway, it was a good session, and i even "started"a mini discussion. i also asked kelli if i could lead the chapter(we're using a book)on contentment. i dont know why but i was flipping through the book and kelli had said if any of us wanted to lead a chapter, that was more than fine and i felt this...feeling to lead that chapter. i dont know why, but we'll see. :)
5. had a double malibu and coke today!so good!

location:Abilene,Texas

October 24,2009 Gifts

1. I walked over to Wal Mart today-it was such an awesome walk! I love walking to wal mart. it is scary at night but during the day I love it. I bought a vacumm, and I am way excited! i have to work on my speech tomorrow, but tomorrow night I am so going to do some vacumming. :)
2. I had lunch at Chili's(near wal mart). the cajun chicken alfredo was so good! I am offically in love with alfredo. lol
3. I went to the mall and got my hair done! :) I LOVE my hair straight :)
4. I went to a movie night at a friend's house tonight. lots of laughs, and the movie(The Truman Show)was awesome!
5. I felt beautiful today.
6. I did not cry today.

location:Abilene,Texas

October 23,2009

1. did laundry today
2. bought a mop today
3. had lunch at harvest moon today
4. had a good walk on the way to lunch
5. watched Cars today
6. watched Wall-E today
7. did not cry today
8. downloaded the Pocahontas soundtrack

location:Abilene,Texas

October 22,2009 Gifts

1. I had a good lunch at Rosa's.
2. I laughed today.
3. I talked to Trevor today. just a 5minute, run into each other between classes talk, but it was so good for me. i love talking to him, being around him. so calming and relaxing and fun for me.
4. I havent seen Brent Parker Bailey today which is good. dont get me wrong:it's not that i hate him or anything. he's my friend. it's just that...as silly as this sounds and as stupid and horrible, i dont like that i can be replaced so easily. i can cancel our thursday lunch hang out, and in 2 1/2 hours he already replaces me with someone else?yeah, nice to know i am so so easily replaced. besides, to me, he is a priority. my friendship with him matters more than me than just about anything. i have two friends, him and trevor, that if i am forced to choose between anything and them, it is not a contest by a long shot. it just...hurts that it's not two sides you know?
5. no one saw me crying today.
6. I walked to and from wal mart tonight.

location:Abilene,Texas

October 21,2009 Gifts

1. I had a bit of a...crying fit/breakdown(nothing serious)after HIP tonight, and so I went to the chapel where I go when I am upset(at Southern Hills)and I cried and cried and I asked God to send me a sigh that He was there with me, that I wasnt too insiginificant for Him to be there or too busy, and tonight, when I was in the midst of holding back a flood of tears, this guy came up to me, and we chatted a bit(he said we had met a year or so ago)and he said that God is proud of me and wants me to know he loves the work I am doing, and that I am doing the right thing, and to keep it up. he said he felt God put it in his heart to tell me that. how awesome is that?God totally answered my prayer in such an amazing way.
2. watched the last episode of the first season of House. such an amazing show!
3. had my grad school meeting today and it went so good! they have an inter-cultural communications concentration under the Master of Communications degree, and so that is totally perfect for me and so awesome! :) :)
4. had a good lunch at Rosa's today.
5. had a good walk to Rosa's today.
6. I did my ESL lesson today and I gave Nancy the flashcards I made her and she loved them, so I am way excited.

location:Abilene,Texas

October 19,2009 Gifts

1. We did this spectrum of light unit in astronomy today, and so we got to put on this 3d type glasses to be able to see the light spectrum and it was so beautiful! just made me think that so many beautiful things are all around us, but unless we have the right eyes, the right mindset, we will never see them. plus the lights were so awesomely beautiful!
2. I laughed a lot today.
3. I did not cry today.
4. I sat with some friends in chapel today. it was fun and nice.
5. I went to lunch at Rosa's today. might make it my tradition to go over there for lunch. good food and awesome walk over there and it is nice to get away from campus at midday.
6. I talked to Trevor tonight! :) :) only for a few minutes, but I havent talked to him in weeks and I've missed it...I've missed him. I now realize there is no such thing as getting over Trevor Adam Cochlin, but I have accepted the fact that he doesnt like me, and never has, and I have moved on from it. I still love him, always will but if I cant make it go away, I can go away from it. anyway, it was so nice talking to him. he always makes me laugh. I love being around him. I never have to think, I can just BE.

location:Abilene,Texas

October 18,2009 Gifts

1. Felt beautiful and Sexy today....not as sexy as when i wear my high heeled, leather boots,but pretty close.
2. went to see a movie today:zombieland. i had a bit of a jealousy/unrequited crush "episode"at church today, so i headed straight for the mall theatre. so helped to see a blood and guts movie!
3. had a good lunch:pizza at the mall. they make such good pizza over there.
4. I did start out my day as my alter ego, but she went away. she always goes away,never hangs around for too long. but somtimes i do bring her out on purpose, when i need her.
5. it was a beautiful day today.

location:abilene,texas

October 17,2009 Gifts

1. I went to a tailgate party today. it was fun! i hung around with people who were my friends and just talked and laughed. i did learn a lesson concerning this unrequited crush thing with Brent...never look him directly in the eye at a close range ever again!least not until i am over this crush thing. but it was fun :)
2. I went to the Homecoming game today...and it was fun(i cheered for the other team. if interested in details,talk to me)and ACU lost :) maybe now they wont be so cocky. it was fun though, being with people.
3. I went to usher at the homecoming musical, and got to see it for free!it was a good show...the love story part of it was good and i loved it, although it did make me cringe(for obvious reasons).it was fun though.
4. I did my Sexy Walk thing around the trail tonight, and it was such a good time! I saw stars, and laughed, and felt beautiful and even talked to God some too.
5. I laughed a lot today.

location:Abilene,Tx

October 16,2009 Gifts

1. Bought my Ipod Touch today!!so excited and I love it! only problem is that I cant seem to get the Wifi on it to work. the ipod part works fine but i cant get it to log onto the wifi, which means i cant log into itunes or the apps store. i will go to team 55 tommorow and see what they suggest. maybe i just need a strong wifi stop. anyway,it is amazing!!
2. hung out with a friend today
3. saw the movie "elizabeth."such an awesome movie!!
4. ordered a pizza tonight. good dinner :)
5. saw trevor twice today...didnt fall apart. still hurts though, especially when he says hi and keeps walking but oh well.

location:Abilene,Texas

October 15,2009

1. I took a Snow Skiing test tonight and while I dont think I did awesome, I think I might sqeeze in a low C.
2. I laughed today
3. I had a good lunch with a friend today.
4. I might have flirted with two guys from Galaxy today...not sure if I was flirting but it felt like it to me a bit....lol I'm trying to improve my flirting skills, so I have a designated "practice" guy that I flirt with on purpose(or try to anyway)to improve. he doesnt know, of course. lol helps that he's cute. lol
5. I enjoyed my Missionary Anthropology class as usual :)
6. I sat under the stairs in the bible building, reading, and it was such a good place to read. :)

location: abilene,texas

October 14,2009 Gifts

1. I walked out of chapel early(didnt get the credit but I have 45 credits so i only need 10 more)and walked to Rosa's. it was a good lunch and I am glad I went. awesome walk too!
2. I did cry in church today(a lot actually)but hardly anyone noticed, so no worries!
3. I did my ESL class with Nancy today and while it is going slow it is going. i am going to do the flashcards so she can study the words with the pictures,and be able to study at home. i love doing esl....makes me feel like I have something worth sharing, I am helping someone with somethint that they will need and will use, and it makes me feel good. granted, it's not as big shot deal as being a church intern, greek tutor, or sbc leader, but it makes me feel good. maybe in the end, that is what counts you know?
4. I was sitting on the benches in front of the campus center ans I was just enjoying the day, and Brent passed by and said hi. I started thinking about him, how he hardly ever slows down and as soon as I started thinking about him, this yellow butterfly flew by me, 10-15ft, and it was like God saying "hey, remeber me?mind back on me please, the one who has been making you giving you butterflies for days..." and it was this moment where I thought:who am I gonna think about/choose: the guy who says hi or the God who makes me butterflies and sends them my way? when i thought it in those terms, it didnt seem like such a hard choice at all. God makes me butteflies, He know how much I love them and that they always cheer me up and make me smile. Brent doesnt know that, and He isnt God...He can't send butterflies my way. or flowers. or a beautiful blue color sky. or a cool breeze. or an awesome sunset. cheesy i know,but it is a new "breathrough"for me.
5. watched the Young Victoria before church today...such a good movie!I LOVE it!!!!

location:Abilene,Texas

October 13,2009 Gifts

1. My COMS 111 test#2 grade is up on blackboard, and I got a 90!! :) :) I am so excited because I thought that I had not done so well,but I aced it!!
2. When I went outside this morning,I felt this fresh cool breeze and for that moment,I felt...peaceful,joyful,okay...hard to explain but even though it only lasted a snap of a second, it was a good moment.
3. I saw some butterflies today again, and I love it! it's like God knows what my weak point is, what He knows will cheer my up and He uses it. this pretending God is romancing me thing is really working. I mean, what guy can top God creating a butterfly and sending it my way?:)
4. I went to the Discovery class tonight, and it was good!we got out results from this test that measures what your interests are and matches it to certain occupations and things. mine are interesting...pretty accurate to me...right down to my secret interest and love of being in charge. i would love to be the person in charge, that oversees the whole game,everyone else,etc. but no one ever gives me a chance you know?plus, i would not be good at it. but it is funny and shocking how it picked it up.
5. I did not cry today
6. I went to department chapel today in the ADM building,and one of my friends(named David)happened to have a class nearby so I saw him and as he was passing by me, he patted my shoulder. i know, way dorky, but i havent had much guy interaction and even though it was a friend thing and not a romantic thing, it was still a good highlight. he almost ran into an open door,like in the movies, but didnt which is good...lol

location:Abilene,Texas

October 12,2009 Gifts

1. I did my ESL tutoring with Nancy today. she's having some trouble, but that is to be expected. she is doing well though. she knows a lot of the alphabet letters. I love doing this ESL tutoring. it is very creative because I have to think of ways to explain things to her, come up with ways to help her pronounce things or remeber things. it is also a leadership role because i am in charge in a way and it is so much responsability. I LOVE it!
2. I had a good lunch today...alfredo as always. i passed the addiction line on alfredo awhile ago...it is so good!
3. I am getting an Ipod Touch!! i emailed my dad and said i wanted/needed a new Ipod, and i have the $106 from my tax refund, and if he could give me the other $100 for christmas, i could buy it. he emailed me and then i called him back and he said that he would rather i save that money and so that i could charge it to the credit card when the payment he sent clears, so maybe next week. i am way excited!!i know...i have gone over to the dark side lol
4. had a good time hanging out with my friends. new ice breaker question: if you could choose a song to have playing the first time you kiss the person you are going to marry,what would it be?ie, kissing theme song. lol...mine is "take my breath away."
5. i did not cry today

location:abilene,texas

October 11,2009 Gifts

1. I had such a good ride coming back from the weekend campaigh I went on. lots of music time and thinking time. I love long rides in general, so it was fun for me.
2. on the drive back,I got to see some beautiful HOP fields(okay so only one)and they reminded me of England, so that was such a good gift from God.
3. I watched two episodes of House today!almost through with season 1, and cannot wait to buy season two!
4. I ate a choclate chip cookie today from subway and it was good!
5. I actually woke up Brent with my text this morning, so that just made my day!finally got him back for that 3 am text summer after freshman year. i sent mine at around 8 in the morning and so it wasnt 3am, but I am not that mean and I care too much about him to do that to him, unless it's an absolute emergency, such as i am standing at the summit of a cliff about to jump off. (JOKE-NONE FREAK OUT)
6. this did not exactly happen today, but I made it througn the Belton campaigh without having a breakdown or even crying. it was hard, not saying it was easy for me, but it wasnt as hard as i thought.
7. might have realized a lesson i can take from this whole thing with James. or one anyway, which James was always telling me but I never really got. until now when i was studying for my coms 111 test. i know, i am a weird person.

location:Abilene,Texas

October 8,2009 Gifts

1. In lifegroup last week, Kelli(one of the two girls leading it)said that she used to pretend that God was literly "romancing her" i guess is the way to phrase it. for example, she would see a bush with flowes and would pretend that God had made that bush with the flowers for her and she would think "no guy on earth can top that."i really liked that, and so i have been doing that this week today in particular(or trying to). for example, the campus has been take over by butterflies lately, and so I pretend that God made and put those butterflies especially for me. and when i kept seeing them everywhere today, i would think "God found my weakpoint."and it really did make me feel special, and it did make me think that no guy can top God making me a butterfly you know?silly i know... it made me really happy today.
2. I had lunch with one of my friends today, and it was so nice!i know this sounds corny, but i love spending time with my friends, and this particular friends is so busy that i hardly see him. i dont know, it was just nice.
3. I am believing more and more that God wants me to do weekend campaigns. I went to Weekend Campaign Chapel today, and it was so good! i had this awesome conversation with one of the girls about New Moon, and it was such a good time. I feel like I am getting to know new people, and i love going on the campaings, and it gets me out of ACU and Abilene every few weeks when i need to, and it gives me a chance to find me and help others...it is so so awesome!
4. I was in the campus center before my 6:30pm snow skiing class and there was this table where they were giving out flower bouquets in a vase, for breast cancer going by the pink ribbon around the vase, and i hesited about taking one because i was not sure if i could take care of them, and then they were out. then a few minutes later, someone gave one back or someone, and i went and took it! i love it, and going with my "God Romancing Me"idea, I pretend that the bouquet was from God, and it was of course. They totally were from Him.
5. My "Elizabeth"and "Elizabeth:The Golden Years" DVDs arrived today, and I am SO excited!! i love the first movie and cant wait to see it again and then right after see the second one! i am so excited!!
6. i watched an episode of house on my season 1 house dvd. such an awesome show!

October 6,2009 Gifts

1. first Discovery class was tonight. i think it will be good to do some career research and get perpective on it and suggestions.
2. got an email asking if i was still interested in a work study position that i had enquired earlier in the semester and i emailed back saying yes, so...fingers crossed! :)
3. had to oedipus the king for english tommorow and i actually understood it and got through it without trouble. i liked it a lot actually.
4. had a good talk with a friend.
5. it rained today, and despite the inconviniece, i am so excited!i love rainy weather...makes me feel nice and cozy and snuggly.

location:Abilene,Texas

October 5,2009 Gifts

1. had my first ESL lesson today and it was so beyond awesome! i loved it and I like that I have to make decisions as to what I think is best way to teach my student(nancy)english, and i love that i finally feel worthwhile. i finally feel like i too have something to do, something to share and pass on if you will. I also loved the pride that came when she would say a word or letter just right. i would think inside my head "yes!she got it!all right!"in excitment. it was a new feeling but i loved it and i love this opportunity. it may not be as glamourous or as big of a deal as being the greek tutor for the entire bible department, but i am making a difference for nancy and i love that.
2. had a good lunch of alfredo pasta. getting addicted to the stuff, i love it!
3. had lots of laughs today
4. the weather today was so great!nice and rainy...reminded me of england. i love rainy weather coz it makes me feel nice and cozy you know?
5. i did not cry today

location:Abilene,Texas

October 4,2009 Gifts

1. went to to church today-cried during the service, sad tears but they are good for me. keeps it all from eating me up inside
2. went to pizza hut for lunch where i got the Alfredo chicken pasta and it was so so good!will have to go back sometime!
3. went to lifegroup-was a bit on the edge coz i had so much stuff to do but it was a good time.
   
4. got my speech outline done
5. got my kinship chart done and the 600 page paper that goes with it!!!! :) :)
6. got my missionary anthropology weekly reading and reading reflection done!!
7. i got everything done i needed to get without difficulty. lots of stress but lots of difficulty.
   

location:Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts

1. my introduction meeting with the refugee that I'll be working with was today. it went so good! She is so sweet and she seems to be very determined to learn english, so I am excited. it is going to be a bit of a challange since I have never done ESL work before, so I will have to be creative. it was such a good first meeting and I am very excited to be helping her. Mondays and Wednesdays from 2:30-3:30pm,and I cannot wait! Her name is Nancy Rojas and she's from Cuba,and she is so sweet and i am really looking forward to getting to know her better and helping her with her english as much as I can and beyond that. it's nice to feel needed. with most of my friends, I feel like they dont need me. They love me and care about me, but I dont make a difference for them. I can make a difference for Nancy, and that feels so good.
2. finally got my topic for my coms 111 speech!
3. got to sleep in this morning until 10am, so that was good. very low key week.
4. they did the "Burn Room" after chapel today, so that's always fun.
5. went to see the free movie in cullen tonight. it was "UP." it was nice and everything, but it didnt WOW me you know?it was missing a certain spice, that "oh so special something"that makes me love a movie.
6. I made a decision to be like the people in denmark. they are the happiest people in the world because they have low expectations, so they are always surprised for the better. so I am going to have low expectations from now on,and will be happier for it. i started today...instead of expecting my friend(initials BPB, bible major, church intern, greek tutor)to actually stop and talk to me, when he said hi to me, i just said hi back without even looking up, and once or twice i didnt turn around and another time i didnt even respond. i know this sounds mean, and i am not mad at him or anything. i am just sick and tired of always being dissapointed you know?and "a good scientist doesnt keep repeating the same experiement over and over, hoping to get different results."(from the disney channel movie GENIUS).

location:Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts

1. had career appoitment...will start Discovery class next Tuesday at 9pm! :) :)
2. had lunch with a friend...always fun. especially since his text asking me about it woke me up right as I was getting depressed and sad in my angry. he has such good timing!
3. had dinner at Harvest Moon...Yummy!didnt eat all that much but the little I had was good
4. put up some more souveniers/decorations in my apartment!it is so so awesome and I LOVE it!!
5. hung out with a friend tonight. was so awesome...cheered me up.
6. went to Wal mart tonight with a friend and bought literly 100 hangers for all my clothes, and a clock for my living room(looks awesome btw)and I also bought some more air freshners(lavender and apple cinammon) and two kitchen type small paintings.

location:Abilene,Texas

September 30,2009 Gifts

1. my world lit class was canceled for today and friday!
2. went to my therapy session and it was good
3. made an appoitment at the career center
4. was happy today
5. had KFC for dinner tonight
6. uploaded Southern Hills Retreat photos and a few of my favorite videos I took
7. bought two new Itune songs
8. got Tattoo #4 today!!!!!

location:Abilene,Texas