Gifts From God Today

1. Made it to  NH! lots of delays and an unexpected overnight in Detroit(don't worry, booked a hotel room)but made it!
2. I always fly in to NH at night, so I've never seen it from the air, and I got to today! it was beautiful! LOTS of trees, which makes sense since NH is covered in trees, but seeing it from the air was awesome. am turning into a texan because the amount of trees in NH looked so...different for me....it shocked me! lol
3. my luggage made it with me!!!! same flight and everything!! when you have an overnight delay and a re-booking your luggagemaking it  is a concern! lol
4. got to eat my mom's cooking, which is awesome!
5. ate pasta de guayaba today!! SOOOOO GOOOOD!!!!lol i had a dominican moment there lol
6. I'm realizing I LOVE New England, I just dont like how overprotective my parents are, and how they never really let me go out all that much when am here because of snow, dark out,etc. i see this is a good because i always thought i hated New England, and its...nice to know I don't. make sense?i can almost see  myself here. lol

location: Nashua,NH

December 28, 2010 Gifts

1. went to fazoliz for dinner, and I got my usual  Fettochini Alfredo. and they asked me if I wanted Chicken with it and I said yes!! they almost never ask me, so i never get chicken with it. :)
2. continued my GRE studying...going good so far I think.
3. slept in today but not too late, just until 12:30pm or so.
4. chatted online with Brent Bailey a bit. he told me he went to the movies by himself, and it just made me so proud of him! lol
5. went to see Yogi Bear(a movie)tonight and it was so funny! loved it!

location:Abilene,Texas

God Gifts To Me Today(12/8/10)

1. I went to the bible department today to see about auditing  a class called "short term missions"(which didnt work out coz its for world wide witness interns only)and I walked in and there were these two older gentlemen talking in the lobby-like area and this cute little boy, he couldnt have been more than 5 or 6 years old, and he just came over and gave me a hug and it was so cute and so adorable! really a bright spot in my day :)
2. southern hills wednesday gathering was fun as usual. I love going simply to talk to my friends and see them.
3. Brent Bailey actually stopped and talked to me for maybe 5 minutes on his way out the door today!!!!:O :O lol
4. decided to audit world evangelism, MWF 9am next semester.
5. laughed a lot today
6. got my grade back for one of my 5 papers that I had due(all within a week or so of each other) and I got a 90(A) on it! I wrote it about...3-4 hours before it was due! but not too much research was invoved and it was half reflection. still...Also got a 97 on another one of those 5 papers, and I wrote that one the day before it was due!
7. watched  a REALLY  hilarious video we watched for my language learning strategies class. it was about input and how sometimes when the brain doesn't get all the sounds and there are "gaps" it assighs it to the closest vocab it sounds like in the vocab memory. HILARIOUS!! to watch it, click here.  

Location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

I know, it's been such a long time since I last did my daily gifts thing, but I am going to start it up again.

1. I actually found this out sunday morning(I read the email at 1:30am) but I'M AN SBC (SPRING BREAK  CAMPAIGN)LEADER!! :) :) I went back and forth so much and so much angst and tears along the way and I even prepped for the interview with my counselor and thought I wasnt going to get it, but I did! I will co-leading the Campaign to Boston with Emily Hood and Jared Hodgens :) :) 
2. I found this out friday, but I got nominated to be on the Faculty Library Committee as one of two student members!! isnt that awesome?!I know, kinda dorky and not a big deal, but I LOVE the library and am so excited :) :)
3. I got a paper back that I turned in on friday thinking I had blown it, and...I ACED IT!! :) only two pages, but good confidence booster. 
4. I bought an archelogical study bible today! I went to learn to read the bible better, and I love this bible because it gives me the context, history,etc of the books, so that helps a lot and its important and my being an international studies major, i love it of course!! 
5. in a good good mood today :) :)
6. nice cool weather today with perfect not-a-cloud-in-the-sky blue skies...reminds me of England...

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. even though I woke up tired, I still slept in, so that was a good way to start the day. :)
2. had an online chat with Dan, and that always cheers me up.even though what we talked about was my lack of feeling like i belong in church, it still cheered me up. he's such a good friend.
3. my 3-5pm shift at work went by fast, and i finished the second of three volumes to discard list!! one more list go!!
4. my 6-9pm went by fast. i did no real work, just hung out on the computer.
5. the waiter at chillis told me that i looked like his sister, which was cool.

location: Abilene,Texas

July 2, 2010 Gifts

1. my shift at work was good today! still going working on discarding but it went by fast and I love my job. :)
2. went to see the last airbender in 3d and it was SO good! :) it made my cry :)
3. my drive back from the movie was really good! listened to "dance in the dark" by Lady Gaga, and it is such a good song and I can kinda relate to it a bit. :)
4. I sent a text to Dan telling him that I saw Jesus in him, and he texted back that the feeling was mutual. which isnt true at all but it still so nice of him to say it.
5. I did not cry today

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. I went to see Othello tonight with Anna and it was so good! I had trouble understanding some of the dialogue but it was still good! it was fun going with someone else. she loves theatre too so maybe we can go to others together as well :)
2. I got my hair straighten today and it looks awesome! :)
3. me and Anna "dressed up" to go to Othello, and I put on makeup and lip gloss and I looked...normal looking :)
4. a bunch of us watched the little mermaid at Brent's house today at 8am(I know, i have strange friends-what's wrong with late morning?)and it was fun. i love that movie!
5. i laughed a lot today

location: Abilene,Texas

June 22, 2010 Gifts

1. got a text from Jimmy today!:) so good to hear from my big brother :) sophia is graduating from pre-school, so that's exciting :)
2. went 8 miles(4 times around ACU trail) on my bike tonight! :) my endurance is building up fast! :)
3. still working on module 1 of my ICAL course. it's going slowly because I am taking my time, really trying to learn the material and not rush right through it. so far, I love it :)
4. my shift at work went by fast! I LOVE my job!!
5. i did not cry today
6. I send a group text asking for prayers that I dont run away from counseling due to fear, and Dan texted me back saying that he will and that the trip(to New Orleans)is going amazing. he wasnt sure if he had answered a previous text I send, saying I hoped he had an amazing trip(i thought he didnt take his cell on the trip and so i thought he would get it after he got back, but i guess he took his cell with him lol). I feel crazy...I am so...I feel like a lunatic because I am praying for him so much, like every night before I go to sleep, and I get genuinly excited when I see/hear God working on him and that he's having an amazing time...I am...insane.
7. got paid today!!

location: Abilene,Texas

June 20,2010 Gifts

1. I listened to "with you" by jessical simpson in my car today, and it was so good! I LOVE THAT SONG!
2. had a good lunch at fezzoliz's.
3. talked with Trevor for a bit on facebook chat, and it was cool. it just drove home the point that...I really am over him. everytime I'm reminded of that makes me feel...awed. there was a time when i didnt believe i could or would get over him. but i did.
4. did not cry today
5. started my ICAL course today and...it feels good and i am so excited :)

location: Abilene,Texas

June 18, 2010 Gifts

1. I did not cry a lot today
2. my shift at work was good but tough! I have two whole shelves of Vogue bound volumes to go through. I got quite a bit of them done, so I only have 4 sections to go! it was tiring.
3. I am alive.
4. it was a nice night tonight
5. nothing bad happened to me

locatio: Abilene,Texas

June 17, 2010 Gifts

1. I signed up to sponsor  a second child through compassion international: a 6 year old girl name Tatiana from El Salvador! I'm excited : ) a bit freaked because i can afford it but with my trip to China next year I want to save as much as possible, but i know that these children need it more than i do, and its not like it is all i make you know? i can still save. am excited and nervous  but more excited :)
2. got 4 more hours at work! i'll now be working 2-5pm mondays instead of 3-5pm, and 6-9pm wednesdays, so i'll be closing. plus am doing the mail since it gets there at 3pm :) really excited and it doesnt seem like it, but 4 hours does make a difference for ur paycheck.
3. I had dinner with my friend Haley today and it was a lot of fun! we bought Little Panda and took it over to her house(she just moved in) and talked. :)
4. I went on a bike ride around the ACU trail tonight, and even though i'm barely using my bike this summer, i rode 8 miles(4 times)around the track! am definetly feeling it tomorrow but it feels good! made me feel good and those endorphirms really kicked in! :)
5. I did not cry today

location: Abilene,Texas

June 15, 2010 Gifts From God

1. yesterday I registered and paid for my ICAL/TEFL online course($265) and today I got my user ID and password to the secured student portion of the website, and so my first step was to complete this short questionaire, what i want out of the course, where i hope to work, any experience,etc and so they are going to take my answers and match me up to two tutors, and then i get to chance which of those two tutors i want as my personal tutor during the course. the course has 5 modules, and each module has: the module, checkpoint(multiple choice questions about the information in the module) and then a written assighment. the checkpoint and the written assighment are turned in and then graded, and i can retake the checkpoint as many times as i want until passing, and the same with the written assighment, except the tutor will look the written assighment on it and make comments and then i can make those changes and resubmit...it seems like a good course where they want you to learn and understand and apply the information and not just get through the course. i am really excited!!
2. I bought a subscription to News China(I found it while sorting the mail at my job in the periodicals department at the ACU library). it's the chinese version of newsweek and since i am going to be living there for at least a year, learning as much about the country, culture,language,news,etc will be good. :) i also bought the english edition of the Chinese National Geographic. it is not available in the USA, so i have to pay $40 since I am outside Asia. still, way worth it! i am so excited :)
3. went to lifegroup. it was good and i enjoyed it, so i am not sure about the all girl's thing, but i'll give it one more week or so.
4. had a good drive on my way back from the movies at the mall!
5. went to see prince of persia for the second time. so good!!
6. i started writing this story at work last night, and i only got a page in so i sent it to Dan and Brent and asked them to tell me what they thought, and Dan wrote back saying he liked it, and that it seemed to him i was good at character development! dorky as this will sound, it made me excited that he liked my writing!

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. I went to work today,and continuted the microfilming decarding project. i'm making headway, but still a long ways to go. it's fun though;  i love my job!
2. I had a talk with Brent, and it went...okay. seems like we have different views on almost everything, but I think he's(and Dan-I talked about this to Dan before school let out without giving him the details and not telling him that it was him)right and I should go talk to a counselor about it, the whole story, not just the Dan part.I'm scared, but I'm going to give it a shot. it's then daring thing to do you know? am scared, but i told Brent that if this depresses me, then it's his job to cheer me up. and i am only half kidding on that.
3. I saw Lilli today!! It was SO good to see her! she's only here for a few days, but it was still good to see her!
4. I did not cry today
5. I looked up Antropology graduate programs. I'm thinking of applying to graduate schools for Teaching English as a foreign language and/or Antropology courses, for Fall 2012 or Fall 2013. :)
6. talked to Dan online for a bit today! he's doing good, so I am SO thankful for that! I love him and I want him to have a good summer with God.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. went to work today and it was a good shift! nerdy as it sounds, my current discarding microfilm and bound volumes project is actually pretty fun!
2. I had a minor fender bender: i backed up into a parked car while i was backing out of a parking space. it was an suv, and i left a bender in their fender(lol) but all's well. my car was not damaged at all(which is good since i only have liability insurance) and the insurence will cover the other person's car, so all's good! it was ironic, coz i was on the way to pay my car insurence bill for june, but the man was really nice about it. he wasnt mad, just took my insurence, and knew that it was an accident, that these things happened, so that was a good blessing. he could have been a lot meaner about it.
3. I went to the wednesday campus ministry activity, which is games and things, and it was a lot of fun! glad i went!
4. after the activity, some of us went to the pizza hut on ambler, and that was a lot of fun! i got to talk to people i dont usually talk to,and the highlight was ordering 8 chicken wings,and getting 20!i only had to pay for the 8 since they mxed up my order, but it was funny! i laughed a lot and it was a good night.
5. i got called a small girl by two guys tonight, so that's a good thing that happened coz i usually think i'm on the big side.
6. awesome bike ride tonight!
7. texted dan tonight and as usual that makes me...happy. he's doing good and loving his internship, though he says it's a bit tough, lot of responsaiblity, but i know he can do it and i am praying for him every night, so i know God's gonna be with him.

location: Abilene,Texas

June 5, 2010 Gifts From God

1. I went on a road trip to Forth Worth with Abigail,Brent, and Lucas Wright(one of Brent's housemates). it was a lot of fun! we had a lot of laughs. the heat was extreme, so i did get a little bit temporary sick but it was fun!
2. we went to the Forth Worth Zoo, and on our way out(by the flamingos) I ran into Mrs. Rodan, my guidance counselor from 8th grade! she was awesome at her job, and really helped with all the applications and stuff for applying to private high schools. it was so awesome seeing her again! small world :)
3. laughed a lot
4. after dinner(brent and lucas's house) i did the dishes and it was a lot of fun! i know it sounds weird, but I LOVE doing dishes! i would never use the dishwater! i love doing dishes! :) it was fun :)
5. got to spend time with some good friends

location: Forth Worth and Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. I went to church today, and it was good. during his sermon, Phil(one of the preachers)used a scripture from Romans and Romans 8:6 totally went along with the scripture from Revelation 3 that talks about having a reputation for being alive but being dead. Romans 8:6 kinda explains in a way what the scripture in Revelation 3 is saying; it helps you understand it. it was so neat because it's like God was helping me to understand it more, that He was continuting to teach me what He started to in the Devo you know?
2. after Devo, i play volley in the backyard with some of the people/guys there, and while i cannot say i really played since i was terrible, it was fun :)
3. watched zombieland with some friends at Brent's house and it was so funny!
4. I laughed a lot today
5. I did not die today

location: Abilene,Texas

Gifts To Me Today

1. my friend Haley texted me asking me if I wanted to have lunch with her, and so we  met up at the library on campus. it was good to talk and spend some time with her. it's always nice for me when people invite me personally to do something like that; helps me feel loved and wanted and cared for.
2. work went...okay today. I have A TON of discard to do, which should take forever, but that's why my supervisor Emily have it to me, since she wont be here for the next two weeks. i love my job, but it does...drain me sometimes, as short as my shifts are.
3. I went to see the new Ashton Kutcher movie "killers" tonight. it was funny, though the plot line was a little...weak. still, it was a funny movie.
4. I did not cry today
5. my experiment with Dan, Brent,and Ellen began today, so I'm excited. lol

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. Finished the bike ride I didnt have the emotional strength to finish two years ago after Trevor did his "cease communication" deal. IT FELT SO GOOD! :) :)
2. the latch in my glove box in my car broke, so after a rough time going to different places, I finally found a good mechanic who recoomended I go to the dealer to order the part, which I did, so it'll take about a week.
3. work went by fast. I have a kinda tedious project but I love working there!
4. had a good lunch at Chillis.
5. was happy today

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts on June 2, 2010

1. I got brand new tires for my car!! my baby looks so good! i've never driven a car with brand new tires on it, so I'm excited!! again, my baby looks so good! plus I feel safer now. :) :)
2. I went to ask a question at the UP office about my rent, and turns out that one of my friends is working there! I didnt know he was around this summer, and so it was a nice surprise. we dont hang out, but it was still nice. see, he's what i like to call my "eye-candy"friend, because he's really cute, and so it was nice talking to him for 5 minutes you know? lol
3. my devo2go is still going awesome! God is really using this to open my eyes to some new thoughts and questions and idea,s and scriptures and scripture passages...i dont know where He's going with this but so far, so good. it's definetly a journey that we are on. :)
4. went on the loop for the first time after church today! and...i got lost. yes, i did get lost on the loop. missed an exit, then got off and didnt know where i was and finally asked directions but hey, it all worked out fine. lol and now i can say that I got lost on the loop!!lol
5. I saw a beautiful sunset while I was lost today!
6. dont tell Dan, but it rained today and while i am not crazy about the rain, i do love how clean and clear and fresh and cool the world feels after it rains, plus i love being nice and cozy when it's raining.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts

1. I went to work today! it was good to be back to work after the holiday. the work was a bit tediours, still reshifting in compact but I think it's all pretty much done! :)
2. I went to Rosa's today and ended up sitting with a bunch of friends. I love people and spending time with them, but that's also my weakness because I always say yes to spending time with people, even though I know that it will end up with me feeling sad because I'll end up alone at the end of it, but it was still good.
3. Brent said today that I was always honest. silly as it is, it kinda made me glad to hear that he thought that. granted, I usually dont say much anyways, but it's nice that he doesnt think I'm a liar or a keeper of secrets or something. lol
4. I went to see a movie tonight. Iron man II for the second time. it'll problaly make more sense if I watch the second one. after, as I was leaving the cinema I had this realization that in china, the movies will all be in Chinese! it kinda freaked out out, because it's going to be this huge change for me, living in china for a year or more, but at the same time I'm looking forward to it. it just made me freak a bit. lol
5. I am alive

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts on May 31, 2010

1. I did the third day of my Devo2go, and it was good! it was about how God sees us, and they had me read Ephesias 1:3-14, and then one of the questions they asked(it comes with a journal so you can follow along and remeber the devos without having to listen to the CD)was what Jesus had to say about me according to the passage. like, for example verse 3 said that He blesses us, so it's saying that I am blessed. I found it so good! it helps to break it down  into what it was saying about how God sees me personally, and not just the collective.
2. I bought Strawberry Fanta Soda at United.
3. baked a pizza
4. watched TV
5. did not die
6. slept in

location: Abilene,Tx

God's Gifts on May 30, 2010

1. I fried eggs before I went to church(chose not to go to the class). I kinda burned one of them but the other one turned out good :)
2. I went to see Prince of Persia: the sands of time after dinner and devo. it was such a good movie!
3. dinner and devo was good! I ate dinner at chillis before I went but I got into some good and funnny conversations with several people. it was a good night.
4. I gave someone a ride home! i know it's silly, but I love giving people rides!!
5. my car ran out of gas at a stoplight, and I was panicking and these 2 men and a lady stopped, pushed my car to the other side of the road, and then the two men went and got some some gas, just enough to make it to the gas station at the other side of the road. I definetly saw Jesus in them. most other people just kept going you know?
6. DRG is still having an awesome summer! he said the teens are amazing and they he even loves the office work. I was SO happy to hear that! my prayers are being heard and answered. :)

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts on May 29, 2010

1. I finally got to see Sex and the City 2! it was good. it was more like a long episode than a movie and the plot was very thin and didnt really seem to have a destination,but it was funny.
2. my friend Haley texted me right before the movie, asking if I wanted to join her for lunch at happy hour at sonic around 2pm. i said yes. it was a lot of fun talking and relaxing,and to be honest, it was nice to have someone come to me asking me to do something you know?
3. I hung out with Anna. we had dinner(oven pizza) and watched a movie(Emma, it was so funny and romantic!). it was nice to hang out with her, she's such a good person and friend. she'll be here all summer, so ma excited to get to hang out with her this summer.
4. I watched Beauty and the Beast at 8am with a bunch of people at Brent's house. it was way early but it was also fun.
5. I started my devo2go devotionals, and it really good. they ask some questions that I never would have thought of and they sound a bit basic but they are really challenging me to think and wonder. I think this will be such a good experience.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. I went to talk to Emily(my supervisor at work)this morning about my work schedule for the fall semester! I brought my fall class schedule, and we talked about my substitute job and how i would need thurday during the day free and wednesdays for church, and it was good! I love working at periodicals because once you're hired, you have a for set job until you quit or graduate! they ask you if your gonna stay during the summer or how until when during the summer, and start planning fall hours before schools lets out(and same for spring semester hours). even if you cant work during the summer you still have a job during the fall. I LOVE it! it is going to be a good summer.
2. I took my third reich paper to the writing center and it was good! a few things to fix but the tutor said she thought it was good. :)
3. Roses are blooming!!
4. I've been in a pretty good mood today, given my stressed out frame of mind right now.
5. I saw Dan today, and I know it's dorky but he always makes me smile and laugh. lol his bangs are getting a bit long and today was windy so he looked so cute with the bangs just blowing across his face like crazy. I think I am so far gone that I can hear his laughter from my spot in the library lobby when he's inside the library! :O anyway, seeing him is always a plus.

location: Abilene, Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. I finally made the commitment to sponsor a child today! It is through friendship International and it is $38 a month. I am really excited! I've been feeling lately like my faith is not making a difference, like I am not making a difference, so this is one way for me to go out in the world and try to make a difference. I can make a difference for a child and never mind that I am saving to posssibly travel this summer or maybe buy a car if that does not work out. some child needs it just to be able to eat, or have food,etc. so they need it more than I do :)
2. I went on a bike ride around campus just as the sun was setting and it looked gorgeous and it was nice and warm out so it was a good bike ride.
3. I talked to Dan today about fasting and he explained it in a way that made sense to me. He said that it reminds him that if he can go without something that he needs in order to survive(food)for 1,2,3,4,5,etc days in order to be close to God, then he can certainly give up things that are not vital to his survival. I think of it as if you can read a 1,000 page book then you can read a 500 page book. so I am going to try it tomorrow! I will be praying for Dan tomorrow while I am fasting because he is such an amazing guy and I want to pray to God for him. I know, silly but I am excited :) and scared also!
4. I went for an interview today for a temporary 2-3 month job that pays $11 per hour and I think it went okay, so I have a decent shot of getting it :)
5. I laughed a lot today :)

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. my shifts at work this morning went by very quickly
2. went to Brew.net with Anna this afternoon; it was very good because we talked about my recent frustrations and wanting to "quit jesus." I am not sure if I am serious, but lately I just wish I could take a time out, or turn around and run because it doesnt seem to be making any kind of difference, my loving God and living like He wants me to you know?
3. at brew.net, I bought a brew.net t-shirt!!
4. went to a free pizza information on this new "make money easily"program. the program I found...not for me because it seemed to be dependent on too many "Ifs" but the pizza was good :)
5. saw a glimpse of a beautiful sunrise this morning.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. slept in until 1:15pm today!!
2. went to Chillis for lunch!
3. bought some mix and baking pan to make cake cookies to sell for croatia. :)
4. went to the International Food Festival and it was a lot of fun! :)
5. went to mezzami's afterwards and played catchpharse with a bunch of people. pretyt awesome :)

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. skipped my morning classes and chapel today coz I needed some sleep!
2. Dan gave me(and 2 other people)a ride back to campus from coffee house and I talked to him and it was fun. i always have fun when i am around him. i did actually ask him how far he has gone with a girl, and...he answered! lol :) it was highlight of my day
3. I am trying to get more into singing during worship because I am very passive and not really think about it, and seeing Dan singing during service makes me want to change that. i am trying to sing with my eyes closed, because i found tonight that it helped me to concentrate on God. :)
4. made plans to talk about my recent..issues...with God with Brent tomorrow night, so I am glad.
5. made dinner plans with Jessica Lane tomorrow.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. I sent Dan this(anonymous)letter telling him how he's encouraged with to do more than just passively sing worship songs during service but to actually mean them, and focus on God and how he is going to be such a good youth minister. anyway,I typed it because I dont want him to know it is from me because he might the wrong idea and think it is a love letter(i do like him like that but i dont want him to ever know!)and also I have never really done anything like this before, and so i am a bit nervous. but i am excited and i just hope that he doesnt freak out but that it brings a smile to his face. i love his smile...
2. jessica rodriguez gave me a ride to go pick up my bike!!i am so so excited to have my bike back! :) :)
3. my bike was $114 to fix and i paid for it myself :)
4. it was really nice and sunny today!
5. i've seen about half of my sbc and it's funny coz we've been back for less than 4 days and we already have all these plans to get together, but i love them. they're such awesome people!

location: Abilene,Texas

March 22,2010 Gifts From God

1. Dan told me thanks for some comment that I made on a photo of him(or that he took)and I dont know what picture he's talking about or what comment because all my comments were silly, but it makes me glad to know that he appreciated it and even though he never responded he did appreciate my mass text this morning where I wished everyone a happy start to the week. so it was good...God is NOT helping me get this guy out of my life or out of my heart but I guess I am just going to have to trust Him.
2. had lunch with taylor. she gave me a ride to the police station to get my background check for the germany teaching english program, so it was a good time.
3. had dinner wity Haley, and it was a good time! :)
4. laughed a lot tonight!
5. i emailed the china program asking them if they had gotten my application and it turns out they had missed it or something so they told me it was a good thing that I emailed them! :)

location: Abilene,Texas

March 20,2010 Gifts From God

1. woke up in time today!5:15am after going to sleep @ 2am! 3 1/2 hours of sleep!
2. left new orleans to go back home to abilene,texas.
3. one of the vans blew out a tire(i wasnt on it)but everyone on it was not hurt or anything and after a few hours delay we were on the road again!
4. we all made it back to ACU safe and sound!
5. I need to talk to Brent about some tough emotions and God things, and he actually said sure! i know it sounds weird, but his "no girl alone time"kinda has made me slightly scared to approach him in terms of asking him to talk or something you know?

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. I decided that I am going to be a prayer warrior, and I am going to start by storming Heaven on Europe's behalf. I started tonight before the SBC send-off devo. I used the Prayer for Nations booklet that I got from Greater Europe Missions. I started with the UK, and it felt SO good to pray for them. I followed the prayer requests listen on the UK page of the booklet but not word for word. I am going to pray and pray for Europe until they can pray for themselves, then they can start praying for others, and maybe, in the end, we'll all become part of God's family. I am begginign to realize that the followers in Europe are part of our family, and they need us,and non-believers need to be prayer for! I realized tonight that I may not be strong physically, or mentally, or maybe even emotionally(i cannot hide my emotions!), and I may not be the smartest, most social, prettiest, beautiful,outgoing,etc. but I can be a prayer warrior, and I may or I may not end up as a missionary in Europe(although that is one of my passions-I SO want to go to Europe and be a missionary), but I can still storm Heaven on their behalf, praying for each nation to become engulfed in fire for Jesus.
2. I found that studying in the library is actually really nice.
3. LOVED SBC send off devo! the talks, the songs,especially the prayer. for some reason, deciding to become a prayer warrior and to storm heaven on Europe's behalf made me even more....into praying. feel it more, if that makes any sense. it was like...I did my own praying, on my own time, and that helped me to be able to be more the community praying with others.
4. had a good 30 minute talk with Stacy about England and study abroad. it was like a sigh that I should go back this summer(and I AM going back-not going is not an option)and I ran into her in the campus center and she asked me if I missed oxford, and that is how it got started. I went to lunch at harvest moon with shannnon, and my fortune cookie had two fortunes inside. one said to stop talking about my plans because I will have more luck with them and the second one said that I will find my solution where I least expect it,and Stacy was like a sign of that, that my plans for this summer should be to work may and june and go back to Englannd in july-mid august you know? :)
5. had a really really good day :)
6. been thinking more about what God told me on Sunday(to not be afraid of a broken heart because He will heal it)and maybe He was telling me to not be scared to like you -you-know because I will get hurt;God will help with the broken heart that is sure to come my way eventually.
7. Tyler Allen tried to hug today after the Send off SBC devo as he was leaving, and I did say that I am not a hugging type person, but it is still cool that he tried to hug me because he's never tried to hug me before. lol

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. I was talking to two of my friends tonight in my usual spot in the library(they're freshmen)and Brent walked by and I sent him this text where I told him that my tattoo was of his name(he's playing along but he must know I'm messing with him because he is not freaking out). anyway, after he went into the library one them said," he's cute." and the other said:" he is cute. he is REALLY cute! he is so adorable!" now, I couldn't agree more; I think he is cute, adorable, beautiful attractive,etc. however, it was still...weird/funny/REALLY creepy to hear a girl talk about Brent Bailey as a GUY you know?
2. got my fifth tattoo!!!!I LOVE it! it was by far the quickest and least painful of all 5!
3. hung out with Jessica Lane today. she gave me a make-up lesson.
4. bought make-up remover. appprently it will help me take off make up faster and easier without me looking like I just cried my eyes out due to all the scratching with paper towels. lol
5. I bought lip gloss(scented)today. it wasnt that bad, kinda fun actually.
6. Brent ate one of my mcdonalds fries today. actually he ate more than one, however, it is small things like that that remind me that we are good friends(I hope lol)

location: Abilene,Texas

March 9, 2010 Gifts from God

1. I made my appoitment for tomorrow! :)
2. I had a really good talk today with a friend I made named Katie. it was a good and fun conversation.
3. had a longer than 3 minute conversation with Brent Bailey today, so that only happens once in a blue moon so that was exciting!
4. It was so beautiful and warm and sunny today!
5. had a good lunch@ Rosa's today.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. the day started out rainy and cloudy but it turned warm and beautiful!


2. Tyler Allen wished me an early happy birthday, so that was a bright spot in my day.

3. Brent texted me! everytime he texts me without me texting him first is always so exciting for me. it reminds me that he does care about me.

4. I had a safe warm apartment to come home to

5. I mailed my application for China Calls today! I really hope I dont get rejected because the more I think about it the more I feel like God is calling me to go to China after graduation. I have been thinking about this since fall of sophomore year!

6. I am alive today

7. I mailed my Summer Working Abroad Program application.

location:Abilene,Texas

March 7, 2010 Gifts from God

1. I put on mu eyeshadow and blush today for the first time, and I think I did a good job because no one could tell I was wearing make up! I bought the two lighest shades they had and I really like wearing make-up, as long as it is subtle and I still look like me you know?very subtle in other words.
2. I laughed today
3. I went to lunch with some of my friends and it was a good time.
4. had a good fun conversation with a guy named Michael. it was lots of fun.
5. david mcmichael tried to hug me today after church on his way out the door. it was  a side hug but it threw me off guard because A)he had never hugged me before and B)I didnt see him coming. it was a bit funny. lol

location: Abilene,Texas

March 6, 2010 Gifts From God

1. It was Jessica Rodriguez's birthday today, and so Sarah Lane, Jessica, Gregory, Dan and I went to see Alice in Wonderderland. it was a good movie, although it was more of a sequel. I liked that I ended up sitting next to Dan(I have a thing for him ok? lol) and it was a good time. a bit hard as well because I so wanted to hold his hand or rest my head on his shoulder but I couldnt you know?afterwards we all went back to Jessica's house for a surprise party, and the night ended at a park playing Lava Tag(I watched). it was a good night overrall.
2. I went to Chili's today! good food! :)
3. went to wal mart and bought eyeshadow and blush and Jessica Lane is gonna teach me how to put it on tomorrow.
4. laughed a lot today
5. did my two months worth of laundry today!

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. work went good today! it went slow but it was a good shift.
2. I hung out with Shannon tonight! it was fun! we watched Spanglish and My Big Fat Greek Wedding. they were both such good movies!it was a good time.
3. I laughed a lot today.
4. I was happy today
5. I made it through today.
6. I wrote a story today! It's called The Twins That Saved CanWest. check it out!

location: Abilene,Texas

March 4, 2010 Gifts From God

1. it was nice and warm and sunny out today!
2. work went by really fast today!
3. at work I finished putting away these work type forms, which is awesome!
4. my economy class was a bit interesting.
5. i am alive
6. still excited about that call yesterday. went so good! i really feel encouraged!

location:Abilene,Texas

March 2, 2010 Gifts From God

1. Got an email from the Greater Europe Mission organization asking for a time to call me to follow up on my Ministry Exploration Form(first step in becoming a missionary with them)! the phone call is like the second step. so excited! :) they are calling tomorrow at 12pm!!
2. went to see my advisor and  it was awesome to see the reality of me graduating on time! plus, only 13 and 12 hours per semester senior year! :)
3. went to have dinner at Rosas. it was good!
4. saw Trevor at Rosa's and it was the closest thing to neutrality that I have ever felt towards him so to me, this is a good sign.
5. got the China Calls application and will start it to sent it in and start the process. they dont expect a sure, comminting answer until march 2011 but I want to get the process started and they agreed it was a good idea.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. Had lunch with Frances Green today! we went to this place downtown called "under one roof" and it is this cute store with  a small restaurant above, and it is very girly so it was fun and I loved it! we talked about my "figuring out my life" and "issues with BPB" stresses. it was good to talk to about it with someone that was older and could give me a fresh take on it. and listen of course. I didnt say Brent's name btw; just thought I'd add that there.lol :)
2. My $40.00 donation to help print new Croatian New Testament Bibles was cashed today!!!!it is official!!!!! besides it being so so awesome, I am also glad I filled out the check okay, because I had to look up on google how to fill out a check.lol :)
3. Did not cry today.
4. Laughed today
5. Library Starbucks had my cheesecubes with pepperoni snack(one of my favs!) :)
6. watched the mummy 2 after I got off work. by myself, but it helped to have a break.

location:Abilene,Texas

God Comes To Me

1. I discovered this awesome beautiful song today! it's called "what faith can do you" by Kutless. they were playing it at Southern Hills before HIP tonight, and I had heard it before but I guess didnt pay that much attention to it; actually, I kinda blew it off. anyway, I really felt this...urging I guess to hear it tonight again so I looked it up online and bought it on Itunes, and have been listenign to it on YoutTube while I have been working on my Economics HW! it is so so..beautiful! it is exactly what I need for some reason. it's like God is talking to me right now, telling me: listen, millie, this is what I can do for you, what I want to do for you..."
2. I have been giving Brent Bailey the silent treatment(except on Google Talk and text and facebook)for about 2 weeks and he finally asked me why!! that;s what I have been waiting for him to do; I just wanted him to come after me and not just let me go you know? so he finally did!! lol I know, way childish, but I am a child at heart. :)
3. This recruiter guy from the "Pioneer Bible Translator" program came to my world religions class today and I was interested so I went to talk to him after class and signed up for information and am thinking about doing an internship with them next summer.just thinking; I have a year to think it over and see what God does with it.
4. Had good conversations with friends today
5. laughed today

location: Abilene,Texas

February 18, 2010 Gifts From God

1. I worked my regular shifs at work today! my paycheck(deposited on monday)will be $145!!
2. I had a good lunch with my friend Shannon
3. Good SBC chapel! I am so excited about my SBC, and everytime I go to our chapel I get more and more excited! signed up to do a devo on friday and for the sunday night cook team! yay!
4. had a good conversation with my friend David tonight.
5. Trevor ate some of my fries today(with my permission)he actually ate almost all of them. I love that we can still be friends like that!

location: Abilene,Texas

February 17, 2010 Gifts

1. woke up today
2. sing song went okay...definetly learning that while this was a good and fun experience, it so wont happen again for me next year!
3. bought a new book today!
4. the application for the china now year long esl teaching program i send for arrive via email. not sure if that is what I want to do or if God wants me there, but I want to get the process started.
5. did not cry today

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. Finished the labels today for periodicals!! 
2. had a good 2 minute conversation with that someone I have my eye on. lol (oh and I high fived him, which  I dont usually do with guys btw, but it was touching him). LOL :)
3. Sunny Guilds emailed me back about meeting with my about Europe Missions and it is set for monday @ 1:30pm
4. The Thailand and Ukraine Let's Go campaigns are only for ACU Grads, but I am determined to go on one, so I emailed the guy leading the one to Mexico for a week in June and he emailed me back today(it's with the youth group-he's the youth minister) and we have a meeting set up for tomorrow @3pm :) 
5. Did not cry today(although I came close-super tired!)
6. this one will sound weird, but I turned Trevor down! I was at Rosas and him and a bunch of his friends were there and he asked me to sit with them( I did last week)and I said no! the thing is, when Trevor asks me to do something, I usually do it, so for me to say no, it's a huge deal to me! plus, I do have to be careful around him,because I know how easy it would be for me to read too much into things like that you know? I guess I need to guard my heart around him. dorky I know lol 

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts

1. got my hair straighten today!!
2. did not cry today!!
3. was happy today!!
4. had lunch at Carinos!!
5. have a appoitment monday at 1:30pm with the europe missions guy.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts

1. looking into something really neat to do in december with southern hills... *mysterious look in eyes*
2. went to see a career counselor(ended up being 2) and the plan is to look into a missions certificate and meet with the european missions guy in the bible department for how to get started. I want to look into more training, actual experience programs that help you become a missionary(still applying to grad school though)
3. sing song practice went okay....
4. did not cry today
5. am no longer mad at brent for that lunch thing on thursday. i never really get mad at him. i wish he could know that my anger isnt rooted in anger but hurt you know? oh well. i just dont like feeling like i am not wanted, and that's the vibe they gave me. it wasnt a "we want to talk one on one" kinda vibe but a "you're not wanted or welcome."

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. Went to HIP tonight and it really helped me! they were talking about Moses at the burning bush and how he had doubts but God called Him and when God calls you, it is about God not you and He will be with you. it helped me because of my recents missions "awakening."
2. did not cry today 
3. talked to a special someone today
4. went with some friends to Brew.Net after HIP and played "clue." fun game.
5. Was really really grateful that me and Trevor can still be friends. 

Location:Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. baked a cake with Kelli today for Anne's birthday(which was on february 3rd but the party was today). it was fun! :)
2. went to the sing song custome workshop and made my custome! vampire cake! it was fun and I did not completly mess it up! :)
3. went to lunch with some friends after the sing song custome thing and it was fun! lol
4. went to see "Dear John" with Anna today! it was fun going to the movies with a friend and not by myself! we went to dinner afterwards and it was fun :)
5. i laughed a lot today
6. took my bike in to to get fixed today, so in a few days i should be biking again!

location: Abilene,Texas

God's gifts to me today

1.went to this dinner to hear a talk of this former language professor in Croatia that was converted thanks to 4 acu graduates and started this amazing spreading Jesus and Hus good news all over the country. It was so amazing and God used that to help me with my Brent issue. amazing.
2.worked today and it was fun
3. did not cry today
4. SBC chapel today!!!! I am so excited for this campaigh. I get more and more excited everytime I talk or think about it
5. Had lunch with Shannon today. It was a lot of fun

location: Abilene, Texas

February 3, 2010 Gifts

1. am alive
2. no one saw me crying at church today
3. i found out i got an 80 on my history test!
4. made chicken noodle soup
5. God loves me

location: Abilene,Texas

February 2,2010 Gifts from God

1. am alive
2. went to dinner with Anna-so much fun!
3. went to work!! :)
4. did not cry today
5. Trevor texted me during sing song practice, so it's so awesome that we're still friends. i love him.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts

1. I was walking to the library around 6:45-7:00pm tonight, and I was passing through the parking lot between the tennis courts and the bible building when I saw one of my friends(a guy). I am a bit near sighted and it was dark(since it was night time) and so he said hey to me but I had to get a bit closer so I could tell who it was and so he asked if I couldn't see him and I said that I am near sighted and he asked if I wore contacts and I said no and he said if it was that I needed them but didnt wear them and i said that I need reading glasses but I never wear them. he then asked if it was because they were big and I said no that they were nice guicci glasses, and red, but that I don't wear them because they make me look smart, and he said "you always do." in short, a really cute guy told me that he thinks I am smart and always look smart. that's kinda cool :)
2. got into this conversation with a high school senior who's coming to ACU next semester as a fresman. his name's Andrew and we talked for about 45 minutes; it was really awesome to be able to talk to him about ACU and my major and other things.
3. my online timesheet for my job is now up and running, so that feels good!
4. made plans to go have dinner with Anna tommorow at 6pm. I haven't hung out with her in forever, so that will be fun!
5. laughed today
6. randy harris talked in chapel today, and he said "following Jesus will cost you everything, and following Jesus will cost you nothing." the first part really hit home for me with the Brent thing going on right now...because it does feel like in order to be a christ-like friend to him and accept his decision I have to give up something, which in this case is my wanting to be able to have one on one time with him. it just really stuck with me.

location: Abilene,Texas

January 31, 2010 Gifts from God

1. went to church today and i was crying because of the brent situation, but after church this lady that i have never seen or talked to before came up to me and asked if i was ok and if she could give me a hug. she told that she's seen me before and that everytime she does she loves me. awesome huh?
2. hung out with a friend for a bit in the library today; it was fun!
3. i did cry today(quite  a bit actually) but almost no one noticed.
4. went to sing song practice this afternnon and even though i was not in the mood, trevor was there and just being around him cheers me up! :) ok, so i do still love the guy, but i have accepted that he doesnt like me and never will and have moved on.
5. talked to that guy i have my eye on at church today. always fun lol
6. I have gone without soda for a month!

location: Abilene, Texas

Gifts To Me Today

1. had to leave amazing race because I woke up feeling a bit worse than yesterday, and i have early library shifts and classes back to back  tomorrow and I need to be semi-better. so I took a cab home. this is not the the good part, but I am glad I made it home safely. i was a bit out of it.
2. spent all day sleeping!
3. my voice is better; yersterday i was losing my voice but today it's better
4. i did not cry today
5. Brent Bailey actually responded to my facebook message!

location:Abilene,Texas

January 17, 2010 Gifts from God

1. my usual ride to church didnt show up, but I took a cab to church. sounds weird, but there was no one else to give me a ride, and I am proud of myself for finding a way to get there.
2. service was good!
3. made chili(helped in large part by Shannon). it turned out ediable, and Kelli said she thought it was good!
4. cried today, but no one saw me(reason: lots of different factors, but somehow the idea that I am losing Brent Bailey as a friend got into my head tonight, and i was also feeling sick, so put those two things together and...)
5. i am alive today
6. spent the night at the church, and i found a kind of cozy pew to sleep in.

location: Abilene,Texas

January 16, 2010 Gifts

1. bought a printer!! so excited! :) now I can print photos and things(and scan them!)without having to go to the library!
2. had my Jesus Date today!we went to Chili's(my idea) and then watched Pride& Prejudice. Jesus made me/helped me see/notice more than the romance in the movie, such as Elizabeth Bennet's idependence and strength; she did not settle, not for Mr. Collins, not even for Mr. Darcy at first. She didnt NEED a man in her life. I want to be like that too. also, Mr. Darcy says to Elizabeth: "you must know, surely you must know, it was all for you." I think-no I know, Jesus says the same thing about dying for us: it was ALL for us. in short, it was a good date.
3. ordered pizza from papa johns.
4. bought apple juice
5. did not cry today
6. sold back my canoe camping book; $24 dollars back in my account!

location: Abilene, Texas

January 15, 2010 Gifts from God

1. Graduating in two semesters(after this one)which means that I am graduating on time!
2. watched the mummy
3. watched the fantastic 4
4. watched cars
5. first shift in periodicals at the acu library went good! i forgot how much I loved to worked there! :)

location: Abilene,Texas

Gifts from God

1. My Spanish class went well today. Still shy about speaking Spanish but getting better.
2. My economics class is going well so far. I am understanding the material and am not lost.
3. God had a friend tell me that He smiles when He thinks of me and that He always gives her images of light when she asks Him stuff about me and that I am his little star.
4. Long story short is that I dropped canoe camping coz being able to swim is an important factor in going and so I changed my Thursday second library shift to afternoon and so I will be able to still go to my SBC chapels!!
5. Signed up to lead our Friday bible time during our SBC to New Orleans. a but scared but excited as well. plus that day is my birthday. Did it on purpose, choosing that night.

Location: abilene, Texas

God's Gifts to Me

1. LOVED my CIV I class today!!so interesiting and amazing to hear about where we as humans came from and how the world we know today got started. 
2. LOVED my Third Reich class today!! we're on background knowledge right now, but I am so so excited and loving every minute!
3. I got funding for my SBC to New Orleans!!I applied for funding at Southern Hills coz they said that they would give funding to all southern hill members going on an SBC. so I applied and I got an email from Jack Walker today saying that the International Missions Team will fund half the cost of my SBC(that's $150!!). it's so awesome to have that support behind me, that they want me to go so much that they would pay half the cost you know?
4. got 3 prospectus from grad schools in England. 2 in London, 1 in Nottingham. I know that I wont get in and that it is a pipe dream but I am going to try. if I don't,then I will never know. 
5. my good mood persists! it got a bit bit bit low during Manna &More at Southern Hills, but nothing bad at all, just a tiny blip.

location: Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts to me Today

1. got through my first spanish comp. and macroeconomics classes today. they will both be challenging and tough but if i stick to it, put the time in and  work hard I should do well in them and learn loads!
2. I GOT A JOB!!!! granted, my chapel exception request needs to be approved since 3 of my times of working will be during chapel but still!! i will be working in periodicals again, so awesome!!
3. went to dinner(second night in a row that i eat dinner with a friend and both times they have asked)with a friend at Chillis.
4. first sing song practice was today. it went...okay. had a bit of those feelings of feeling jealous and not good enough compared to Emily Hood but it was good overall.
5. laughed today
6. had lunch at Rosa's today!

location: Abilene,Texas

January 11,2010 Gifts from God

1. I started classes today and they were all awesome! I know my classes will be tough, lots of reading it looks like so far and a 10 page paper,but i am so excited about all of them and cannot wait! I think it will be a good semester for me!
2. I had dinner with my friend Haley, and it was such a good time! we went to little panda and talked and it was a fun time. I made her laugh a lot which makes me happy coz i love to make people laugh. she said that she could see how God has been working in me since I got to ACU, and that was a highlight of the day for me.
3. Brent actually texted me! this is always a high coz i always text him. granted we were both in the starbucks area of the cafeteria and he was letting me know he saw me, but still! lol
4. got started on my history 117 homework. we have to read a chapter a week with a quiz each monday(friday this week). the chapters are kind of long and I am taking notes as I go along so that makes it doubly long but I really want to do good in my classes this semester and I truly want to learn. plus I love history!
5. I made it without soda today!
6. I have been in a really good mood today, like yesterday. i feel...light. like something huge and heavy and worrysome has been either made really light or taken away.

location:Abilene,Texas

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. went to church today! i love southern hills so much and i always miss it when i am gone.
2. i was SO happy and in a good mood today! even at church, i got that feeling i used to get fall of sophomore year(before i went to england):that feeling of being happy and content and loving being there and feeling like my battery was being recharged. so awesome!
3. i bought groceries at wal-mart. had to take a cab back to up because i had 7 heavy bags of groceries but i bought $67 worth which should be enough for about 2 weeks. i am not getting a mLocateal plan this semester,so i am cooking all of my meals and only 2-3 meals out a week.
4. bought my school books today!expensive(still need to get 2 for my spanish composition class) but they look interesting and i am so excited for classes to start tomorrow!
5. made dinner plans with my friend haley for tomorrow! :)

Location:Abilene,Texas

Gifts To Me Today

1. got up at 5:30am to go back to Abilene from Red River. we left around 7am and got back to Abilene around 7pm, so we spent about 12 hours in a van!
2. we stopped for lunch at a sonic and i had the popcorn chicken and it was good!
3. saw some beautiful mountains
4. listened to music all the way back to abilene
5. had my first "jesus date" today

location:Abilene,Texas

January 3, 2010 Gifts from God

1. My 7 hour wait for the greyhound bus went by fast so that was good.
2. during my greyhound wait/layover, I got to talking to this guy and it was fun!we talked until it was time for me to go. silly random conversation, nothing serious but it was my first "encouter"with someone that has given my a glance at how some people view/think of Christian "lifestyle" for lack of a better word.
3. fell asleep on the bus to abilene, so it went by pretty fast.
4. got in a 5 hour nap as soon as i walked in the door to my apartment
5. it was so awesome to walk in to my apartment all nice and clean and neat(i cleaned before i left) and just being in my apartment in general.
6. i dont have to hide my tattoos anymore!lol

location.: Abilene,Texas

January 2, 2010 Gifts from God

1. in between my crazy flight adventure(to say the least) i found a  chillis in the detroit airport
2. managed not to have a breakdown today
3. did not die in a plane crash today
4. looked on the bright/positive  side of the airline misplacing my luggage, thankfully it was found and is being shipped to my parents
5. while i was delayed it still wasnt so bad that i couldnt make it back to abilene on time

location:Flying Across the Country

God's Gifts To Me Today

1. Slept in until almost 2pm today!
2. had such a good drive to the movies tonight!
3. saw "have you heard about the morgans?" and it was so funny!!
4. on the drive back home it was snowing, and I must admit...it was so...beautful and almost magical. I must confess that I do love New England and I could see myself living here, I just dont want to.
5. did not cry today

location:Nashua,NH